For Now

This is just a little something I wrote to describe my current place in life.

She gently laid a hand against the glass and felt the cool sensation it sent along her entire hand. The colors and shapes were driving her crazy. She felt like the dictator of a whole new world, peering in on her inferior people. However, she was no dictator and the fish before her were surely not people. Rather, she was the inferior one, in awe of their glory.

It’s a feeling that she can’t quite explain – the sight of each individual fish with its each individual color, shape, texture, and habits. She wants to be with them - swim with them, name them, love them. Something about fish just inspires her. Odd, but amazing.

It’s not just about fish though. Marine mammals, coral, waves, the ocean – it all brings about feelings that she can’t explain. So badly, she wants to know as much as she can about it and know everything. She wants to be the best of the best, the most knowledgeable marine biologist in the world, she wants to be considered a fish out of water.

However, her time has not yet come. The ocean is meant to be hers one day. God established that when she first threw herself into the salty water of Key Largo, FL and saw the array of life surrounding her. The ocean is meant to be hers and she is meant to be the ocean’s. She sees the ocean as the face of God, presenting itself in individual pieces to inspire awe in those who behold its glory. Yet, it still isn’t her time.

For now, she would have to wait. For now, she would have to dream. For now, aquariums had to be enough.