Facing the Inevitable

I know it was inevitable. I mean, it was bound to happen as long as I stayed alive. I’m another year older. I was excited, I really was. Don’t get me wrong, I still am, but it’s kind of shocking and weird that I feel as if I’m watching one of those old-fashioned, rolled films. I’m watching my childhood pass by me and now it’s gone. I’m not so sure that I’m ready for this. These past few months I’ve done things that have made that completely official. I’ve made decisions that, although they’ve been fun and exciting, they make my childhood disappear. I miss the days of fighting over Barbies with Hope, getting used as Trey’s human surf board in the pool, or bickering with Ashley over how she always plays “mom”. No more silly crushes or fighting over the swing set. I long for those car rides to school with my mom and the long hours with my dad in his office at the church. I just want to back up for a little while to when a box was my castle and the cat was my prince. They’re over.

But now I’m making new memories and these ones, they’ll last longer.